it might help if i actually listened to people when they spoke to me.

yesterday, when nyjbi was here, she thought that she could get her last word in with me (and say whatever the fuck she wants to me) and said something like, "that's what's wrong with you.. you always think about what people do wrong.." or something like that (i don't remember exactly how she said it or exactly WHAT she said but it was something like that.. i wasn't really paying attention to what she was saying to me as usual- in fact, i'm not even sure if she said that shit to me or if that's an old argument that i had with vincent when vincent said that shit to me in his defense). she was trying to get her last say in with me before she didn't work with me anymore (i think) and she was asking the supervisor on the phone if she found another pca to take her spot yet to work next week and the supervisor said, "nyjbi.. what are you talking about? you just gave me your two weeks notice at the end of last week.. so, i still have another week." so i think that ALSO shut nyjbi up also.
my birthday today was boring- as i suspected, tram called me and wished me happy birthday and then asked me what i had planned for my birthday AS IF I'M THIS PERSON WITH AN ACTUAL LIFE. i said to him in a normal tone, "nothing." then he said, "nothing?!" then i said, "yeah." then he said, "why?" then i said, "because i'm a loser." then he said, "no you're not." i don't really like bringing up the reality that YES, I AM A LOSER. *sigh* i'm alright with it.. whatever. it's halfway my fault anyway but i'm trying to deal with the consequences and overcome my brain injury as much as possible.